Sobered Up

So much for being high on life... I got sober. Today just put a hurtin' on my feeling of joy. Don't get it twisted, it's not like I'm miserable over here, I just didn't have a fantastic day. The thing that has made my irrefutable feeling of joy go away is that I don't know if things will continue to fall or if they will pick back up.

I'm just a little confused now with what to do, and who to trust around here. I thought that I was good for a while, thought that winter break had pumped me up enough to last until March but I guess not. It all starts with drama of course... that he said she said bull sh*t. There is nothing that can be done about it and seems to never go the right way for me.

For one I don't know why I am the topic of anyone's gossip... It's not like I am involved with everybody or that I make some kinda huge impact on their lives. So why am I brought up in conversation? Why is shit talked about me, some he said that she said that I said bull sh*t that is far from true. And if you read this and think I'm talkin bout you, your probably right. It just makes me feel like I can't trust nearly as many people as I thought I could, and it's not even like somebody let out some secret of mine, they made something up...

Plus I'm just a little stressed out. Somebody that I care about got hurt today and I haven't really got the chance to find out how she is doing... Even I say that not knowing can be a good thing but not in this situation, I would love all the details right about now, got me worried pretty bad and it's worse that I can't do anything about it...

I can't really share all my thoughts today, the rest of it is just a little too personal for the public.

-->Alex Richey<--